Montana Wolf

Thursday, February 28, 2013

A Time Beyond Time

As I prepare for another presentation of, "Wild Encounters: The Sacred and the Profane," I think of time... Past, Present and Future, as I question what happens to linear time when I am in wild places, midst wild life. When one opens the senses, as one does in the wild, linear time dissolves. Why is this?

Imagine this ancient perspective:

Past is the earth:  the dust of our ancestors, the opening/sipapu from which ancestors came in myriad creation myths, the place from which plants sprouted, the volcanic source of mountains...

 Future is the horizon: that which is beyond reach and is unknown, where mystery dwells...

Present is the sensuous world as we experience it in the moment, right now.

Past Present Future were once embedded in the earth; we evolved with all beings and shared this non-linear reality and language. It is only recently that we removed time from dirt and sky, the cycles of nature and women's bodies; that we transferred them to the hands of a clock; a calendar disconnected from the organic.

Women experience this cosmic merge of time with our monthly menses; our built-in transcendent time machine, the flood of blood that takes us to other realms. Ancient women knew this, honored this. Tribal taboos protected critical dream time.

So it is that I, woman-beyond-blood-time, return to the wild and fulfill my cosmic connection. To enter a time-less time... to walk an earth that vibrates with the past, gaze on a horizon ripe with mystery, quiver with the energy of wild ones and their knowing. So it is I come home.




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  1. From Ronny: I think about this a lot. To keep ourselves confined to linear time is no different than believing the word is flat. Hopefully soon human will let go of that crazy idea. However, I ponder if we need to release ourselves of of circumference thinking.......the the endless circles of time and seasons and move on to just Being in the Sphere.

    1. Thanks R. Good point. I view it as spirals, continuing movement of energy that is circular but never comes back to the same place; a dynamic vibrational flow.